I am newly single and have decided that maybe it's just best to be a single transguy living with a drag queen, 2 cats and a dog lol....I am doing a lot of soul searching and working on bettering myself. I have been performing more and enjoy every minuet of it. I performed open shirt for the first time last night and it was the most liberating feeling I've had in a while(aside from going swimming at night without a shirt on)
An update on my transition progress....
I have gained 18 pounds. I am filling out in the face and having a small amount of facial hair grow in. I also have hair growing in on my stomach that is blond so hard to notice. My appetite has leveled out. Some days I eat more than others but that's normal for anyone....I no longer have a period but sometimes get cramps like my period is going to come. Although it never does. My voice is much deeper than it used to be and my "Adam's apple" is more noticeable. My sex drive has increased(which doesn't help being single!!) A few days before my shot is do is when it is at it's worst. My chest dysphoria has also gotten worse but the "T" has increased my muscle mass above my "breasts" they are beginning to look like pecks almost.(Hard to explain)...it's getting easier and easier to do my shot by myself. It doesn't take me as much time to talk myself into it lol. I am beginning to pass as a male almost on a regular basis. I was at a local bar yesterday preparing for a show, was having meaningless conversation with the guy in charge of the lights, he thought I was male until I told him I would be performing in the show as a drag king....he looked a bit confused for a moment but quickly understood.
Binding wise I don't bind as much anymore. I have begun to transition into just layering t~shirts. I bought my first "packer" yesterday. I'm not sure if I will be wearing it on a regular basis yet. It takes some getting used to at first, not gunna lie. But it has helped alot with other forms of dysphoria I've been dealing with.
so that is my update at this point. I am doing my best to get Internet at home and as soon as I do I will be updating my entries with pictures and videos. I hope all are doing well!!!
Until next time...love and peace
~Jayson~
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